Alone - Loneliness

it's been a long time i never update myself here.

it doesn't matter because no one will concern about tis.

So, at this moment, i'm still jobless.

I don't know when will i getting my posting, 

but tis is not my main concern.

I hate myself.

Because i don't have the effort to do the things i'm supposed to do.

Like exercise, diet, work, reading and so forth.

I'm being with her for 10 days.

It's a brand new experience between me n her.

Maybe it's time for me to have a change.

?

no matter where i go, 

i'll always encounter some relationship problem but i dont know the reason.

am i too stubborn? or am i to self-centered?

anyhow, no one will help me to noe more about myself.

no one will be able to figure out what happen.

so, i'm still alone.